Welcome back to the semiregular musings of Joe.
My two to three readers may be interested in an update on the happenings of the previous post. Well it seems that I'm officially in a relationship with this wonderful woman they call Cindy. I tend to call her Cynthia, but that's just splitting hairs.
We've begun setting up meetings of friends and family and in all honesty I haven't been this happy/excited in quite some time. I've actually been leading a very contented single life so this things kind of snuck up on me and caught me by surprise.
Concerns have been stated that we might be taking things too fast and I can't disagree with this. Both of us have been in situations where we should be more cautious with ourselves. In all logical ways we should take it slow, and to be perfectly honest we both said we would and we did set out to do just that. Sometimes that isn't how fate decides things go.
With Ashley there was passion and fire that drove me to do whatever it took to get her to fit into my life. I set aside pieces of my life and compromised things I never thought I would compromise to fit her in a place I crafted for her. Then as she grew and I grew, I came to overlook how she outgrew that place I had made, and I failed to see that I was becoming jaded with her for changing me, when it was I who had made the change.
With Cynthia the passion and fire are the same. I want her touch on my face and her smell intoxicates me. When I sit next to her I feel as though I am with someone I've known my entire life. When we talk everything comes easy and there is never anything I feel I cannot say to her or any secret I would want to keep. She fit perfectly in my life like she was made for me. I don't have to be anyone else or compromise any part of myself. I am who I am and she is who she is and that is everything I could want from her.
We are still careful. Still wary. Not planning to run out and get married or have babies. We are adults who know how to handle a relationship. She lives in seward until she finishes school. I live in lincoln. We have barriers that prevent us from really moving too damn fast like moving in together. But in the mean time I call her for lack of a better term girlfriend. I hate that term because I went out of my way to make sure she was a woman and not a girl, a woman with convictions and a sense of self.
I am happy.
We are happy.
